Sunday, April 18, 2010

I feel like I let you all down...

... I am not going to Rome or Malta. At least not any time soon. I held out hope that conditions would improve. Even when the first week of my trip went up in smoke, pun intended, I clung optimistically to the dream of going to Rome during my originally scheduled time.

My flight was cancelled and I was too hesitant to rebook. I used the best judgement I had at the time and decided to wait till the dust settles, literally.

But in the meantime, so many of you sent me your prayer requests. Even worse, parted with your money in good faith that I would be making a pilgrimage. You were genuinely as excited as I was.

That is what makes this so devastating for me. I feel your disappointed weighted with my own. I will get to Rome, I just don't know when. My classes are starting after the summer and there will be no time for me to take a trip like this again for at least another year. It was now or never, no exaggeration.

I regret the situation and understand completely if you would like reimbursements. You can contact me via the_crescat@yahoo.com.

29 comments:

Anthony S. "Tony" Layne said...

In all things, Lord, Thy will be done.

Seb said...

Dear Crescat,

This is unfortunate, but you haven't let us down - no fault of yours.

I feel your pain, as my plans for Italy may also fall through, though I still keep hope and follow the news (apparently the Italian airspace is to reopen tomorrow - the situation is worse in the North, so flying into Rome might be more of an option).

As for the donations, I'll just speak for myself, but please keep them - you can put them in a savings account for a year and go then. Maybe you can do a roadtrip mini-pilgrimage somewhere closer in the meantime. Flexibility is the key.

elena maria vidal said...

You'll get to go sometime, I'm sure. Just hang on to our intentions....

Angela M. said...

You can still pray AND offer up your disappointment - this might be even more effective.

Rose said...

Go when you can and pray for us then. Not your fault a volcano decided to spit up all over Europe :-)

Alex said...

http://www.audiosancto.org/sermon/20081102-All-Things-Work-Together-Unto-Good.html

Adoro said...

I unfortunately wasn't able to contribute financially to your trip, but if I had I would not be asking for reimbursement. I'd be asking you to hold on to it, and use it either for other needs that arise or for a future date, even a year or more in the future.

I think that once I give, it's gone from my hands and belongs to the one to whom it is gifted. I'm guessing others feel the same way. As long as you take what is yours and use it in good conscience, even if the outcome changes, it can still be for the good.

Prayers for you continue, and part of that is my hope that you do finally get to go, whether now or later.

I'm so disappointed for you!

The Ironic Catholic said...

Aw, hon, I'm really sorry. I am also as broke as a clock without batteries, so I couldn't give you any money, but if I had--I mean, you can't control volcanoes, right? Seems like a good time to do some Icelandic trash talking, though, just to make you feel better.

I'll start.

Those Icelanders...
(hmm, this is hard)
Iceland is so mean it ...
(dang! What do you say about a country of Nordic isolationists!?)

Somehow, someway, the NYT is behind this. There's a scoop (of ash).

nazareth priest said...

I'm really sorry, as well.
Don't let it get ya down, dearie.
All will be well.
Who knows?
Maybe the Lord is keeping you from something horrible...I have learned to thank God when things "get in my way"...when I'm detained or unable to get somewhere; I've found out several times I could have been killed in some kind of accident or catastrophe.
Just wait on the Lord.
It's awfully disappointing; but you can't help it.
Chin up! (My English is coming out here!).
My prayers and love.

Laura The Crazy Mama said...

I can barely keep food on the table (and couldn't contribute...Like Adoro, I would have and would NOT be asking for the funds to be returned. Of course, that's easy to say with imaginary moolah!), but your posts always give me food for thought and I took the trip to Malta with you in my mind. I know it's a sickly substitute but it's the only one I'd ever even get close to...so I hope you use the funds for whatever dreams you can fulfill HERE and that, someday soon, providence will find you THERE. God bless you!

laurazim said...

Good gracious, Kat, there's tons of love and prayers for you here. With as often as you turn our hearts toward prayer and our eyes toward loveliness-whether it be Our Lord, His Blessed Mother, the beautiful coast of Malta, or the amazing physical fitness of the Swiss Guard--you ought to be the first to know that we're not disappointed IN you--we're disappointed FOR you. I think Nazareth Priest is very wise in his counsel that God sometimes puts things in our way so that we can praise, bless and thank Him on this side and be safer and better for it. I've had those experiences, too, where something happens to make me late or cancel plans and have it turn out that something horrid would have happened if MY plans had worked out to MY liking. Small comfort, I know, but if Baby Jesus wants you in Rome, then Baby Jesus will help you get to Rome...His timing is always perfect. +JMJ+

Dom said...

Very very sorry to hear this.
Pray and offer up your disappointment and do remember that you will be in Rome in His time.

God bless you.

margaret said...

Oh, Cat, I am so sorry. But it will happen. Chin up. And whenever it happens we are all going to love hearing about it.

國昆 said...

廢話不多,祝你順心~^^........................................

Suburbanbanshee said...

There were a lot of great saints who dreamed of getting to Rome or the Holy Land, who never got there. There also were many great saints who suffered disappointments, but eventually did get there. Either way, your disappointment now is a sort of all-expenses-paid pilgrimage to the Cross, given you by the Lord. :)

And it seems He realizes that it would take volcanic ash, fire, and flood to stop you. :)

Better luck next time, and a better exchange rate, too.

Gregory said...

Chin up, you still have the best artwork on the web, and your web page is a must see in my book.....Time to do that Cowboy project I emailed you about?

People is Europe are learning an old lesson: Smoking is bad for you. Duh....especially if it's volcanic.
Look at this...

http://eldgos.mila.is/eyjafjallajokull-fra-thorolfsfelli/

ArchAngel's Advocate said...

You know, you might consult with Digi. I think you have a case for damages against God, as it was an "Act of God". LOL!
(What makes me think of it is that a bunch of Holocaust survivors put God on trial. God lost, but I doubt they were able to force Him to accept the judgment. Makes you wonder who He would appeal to...)

Badger Catholic said...

Sorry to hear that.

Our Lady of the Divine Providence, ora pro nobis!

Kike said...

I'm sorry that English is not my native language in order to tell you, with my better words, how sorry I feel for your expectations. But not sorry for you: just think about this: God always gets good things from bad ones (take a look at what happened with human kind when Adam and Eve sinned). I send you a big big hug.

By the way: whenever you may travel to Rome (I'm sure you will), Lizzette and me will be already married. Then it will be better for us that you pray for us then.

PaxetBonum said...

Kat- Ditto what everyone said, and doubleditto NazPriest and SubBanshee. 'The Lord works in mysterious ways'... ain't it the truth?

You might console yourself by reading Job, and Julian of Norwich. And remember what the Georgia hound dog said to himself after he gobbled down a big juicy peach, pit & all... "This, too, shall pass"... ;>) P&B.

CM said...

I have been checking your blog all weekend for updates....if I am this frustrated I can't imagine how frustrated you must be! A volcano! Who knew!
But keep the faith, I am sure you'll get there someday and it will be worth the wait.
As for my tiny donation (really tiny)...it is a gift to you because you and your blog make me smile. You can use it for whatever you want, trip or no trip. Thank you for making me laugh so often.

Terry Nelson said...

I'm so sorry too. You'll get there one day. Why not make a domestic pilgrimage someplace? Go to a shrine - I heard of a cute little chapel in South Beach... kidding - but I'm serious about using the funds to go on a domestic pilgrimage.

You're in my prayers hon!

saintos said...

As you know, I didn't give but since many of those who did are saying they don't need their money back and if it will help assuage some Catholic guilt for you, please, feel welcome to send me some of that money. I could send you a drawing of a green prayer cloth or something, in fair exchange.


But seriously, sorry for your very real disappointment. I think AngelaM's suggestion above is a humdinger.

Sheep 1 said...

I'm really sorry and was hoping your trip would not be affected. It isn't much consolation but this was totally beyond your control and perhaps in the long run of the future, it will work out even better when you do finally get there. I hope so and I'm sorry. I was excited FOR you to go and I am disappointed FOR you to have it be "no go." God bless.
Kay

Mimi said...

I agree, it is not your fault. I am sad that you aren't going, but because of your disappointment, not mine.

Prayers.

Smiley said...

huggggg.
stupid volcano.

John said...

"or the amazing physical fitness of the Swiss Guard"

hmmm, and surely you've been praying the Our Father regularly - "lead us not into temptation"

double hmmmm

Perhaps God was simply answering your prayer with an unpronounceable Icelandic volcano

Sancta Camerinus said...

God Bless You!

Don't feel bad! There's no need to think you let us down. Not your fault. That stupid volcano, well...
I once read that Good follows Bad, so who knows!

Love follows hatred.

God Bless You!

Kamilla said...

I am so disappointed for you!

I am praying you go in God's time, but that you definitely go.

Kamilla